Last nights chat was ok... it was a good topic but stoney and wen tend to monopolize the conversation to a point that most in the group just sit back and “uh huh” the banter... last night was on trust... a topic that tig has come to know personally.... chatted with hound again prior to the Maine chat... he’s taking his time journaling but has jotted notes down... which is ok... it’s a start... there was a lot of information bounced around.... was asked again to share a cage with him, he wants to be shacked together with tig... told him that it was up to Master...upon chatting with hound it wouldn’t be far fetched for tig and hound to hook up... he is a wonderful, loving person and not bad in the looks department either!.... tig finds it very interesting that hound longs to be a sigma level slave... the top of the lowest division of slave... an object... nothing more... guess having the distance issue would make that a lot easier to deal with.... life becomes solely virtual. Master sent tig an assignment... not sure if this is just for tig of for the community.... to list his needs, desires and expectations.... then to write about where tig saw himself in 1 month, 6 months, 1 year, 5 years... this is a hard thing to think about... there are so many variables involved, so many unknowns... things like new house? new incoming slaves? we are a team, therefore things that happen to others affects tigs future.... as well as everyone else’s.... so tig looked at the task as an ideal.... level and duty wise is factual but place and the addition of people may be fictional.... it would be very interesting to read scruffy and hounds assignments.... tig would venture a guess that their needs would outweigh their desires. tig has 3 needs... food, water, shelter... the basic necessities... tigs desires are more involved.... tigs desires are to be wanted, needed, loved for who he is and what he offers... and tig also desires a chance to grow on and with his journey.... expectations... tig has come to realize that by placing expectations on something limits the natural growth that a person has in that area.... so has opted to enter the relationship free of expectations... simply put what happens.... happens..... bad things become learning lessons... good things become rewards... it’s just that simple.... tonight is community chat... it will be interesting to see who shows up and who has the excuses.... when everyone would show up the chats were lively and fun... lately Master and tig have enjoyed chatting just the two of us because no one else was online.... pup was either away or in meetings and Behr doing domestic things... Hmmm... guess Sir is busy today, tig tried texting him a few times and hasn’t received a response yet... either that or he is upset with tig over something.... most likely just busy.... it’s an odd day here at work... between the sick people and the mistakes that are coming through.... it will be a miracle if we all survive! issues, issues, issues..... guess I can’t complain too much! :) considering I only have 17 working days left... been invited out Monday night for dinner and a movie with Baraccus80... a friend that pup asked I hook up with online... unknown to him... I knew him already... we were diaper buddies back when tig was into that... we no longer meet to hang out in diapers but still chat on a regular basis... we are going to so dinner at the Ground Round and then go see Date Movie at the Flagship... it will be nice to spend some one-on-one time with him... he’s a real nice kid.... will ask Master tonight for permission to go.... next week looks like it’s going to be a busy week... Wednesday tig will be meeting with his Supervisor, co-supervisor, lead and Manager to tend his two week notice... it still all seems so surreal1. Even though we had 211 items today we were still done by 11:30 when tig went to lunch..... hmmm... just thinking about fetishes.... tig enjoyed his time that he would spend in diapers... but hasn’t had the urge that he used to have to wear them... which raises a bunch of questions.... Is serving Master a replacement for the fetish? In a way tig feels it is.... in looking at why tig wore them... it gave tig a freedom... a chance to let go of all responsibilities... tig didn’t need to be the responsible one... children don’t have authority... no laws.... something tig was looking for.... a place and time to relinquish all control.... even of his bodily functions.... is that what tig is seeking in his Master? yup.... someone to take the control.... tig may chat with pup about this tonight.... about being allowed to wear again... maybe a couple of times.... just to see what/if the emotional tie is and if it still is there.... tigs equipment for this is vast and costly... and will be brought to CA with him.... just in case Master Cage, Master Behr or pup would like to utilize them... since all of tigs “toys” are now the property of Master and the community..... what about other fetishes? are they the same.... tig supposes that they are but can’t say for sure since tig isn’t involved in them..... tig finds in interesting how different fetishes create different emotions.... Leather is power... control.... age play... loss of control... or even humiliation. hmmmm... interesting! tig will search a list of fetishes and see if he can assign an emotion to them.... that might be something for the community to see and read..... could be of use to Master...
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