WOW
- Mood:
indescribable
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Tigger finds that working to build a strong relationship with Master, pup and behr is the only self satisfaction that is required.... family, relationships.... love
- Mood:
happy
- Mood:
relaxed
went to see wen and curtis tonight... had a nice chat.... pup seems to be out of sorts today, not sure what's up... maybe just too much work... too much travel.... it's ok.... boy needs to remember that Sirs position is with Master... not much else to chat about tonight...
- Mood:
drained
- Mood:
contemplative
Please allow your new slave to take this time to thank you for all that you offer. You have given slave a new purpose in life, one that he had lost, one that was eating slave to the deepest part of his being. slave did start to doubt but realized when he met you that things would be ok…. Nerves can do weird things…. slave does need to admit that for the past couple of weeks he has been an emotional wreck. The simple thought of meeting ones perspective Master and not one but the two top community members, kind of gets the adrenalin running… and then to organize and host a meet and greet party. But slave being anal ended up with 14 lists of to-do’s and was pleased to see that they were completed in time. Even though pup said not to go through the work - that is not slaves way, Master deserves the best and slave made sure that he was given everything that slave could, slave only wishes that he could have done more… it felt so good to serve once again. slave would also like to thank you for taking the time to be sure that slave is pleased with the contract, slave finds that this shows the love and care that will be enjoy as time goes on. slave is anxious to begin his service to Master in a more involved, deeper sense… one that will benefit Master and the community.
Behr, what can slave say… your quiet presence and love of lifes experience is a pleasure. slave is very interested in future chats and exchanges of ideas and dreams… Your presence as trainer excites slave and makes him want to do as much as he can to please and serve in any way that he can… through whatever means are available…. It’s an exciting new life that slave has chosen through the help of Cage Community.
Pup, wow… there is no one that slave can even think of that comes close to you. Your love, patients, and caring for slaves well being is a comfort that has been needed in slaves life. Slave has heard of many online relationships not working… but slave firmly believes that because of your love for Master…this will work. Our daily text session assures that slaves heart is always with Master…
Then there is Master Cage, without whom none of this would be possible… Master, it’s hard to express the feeling that invades slave’s body when that is recited…. Master Cage…..Master Cage…. slaves owner… to be owned by one as caring and loving…. What more can a slave ask for?…. What more can anyone ask for? Thank you Master Cage…. Your slave will not let you down….
Lastly Master and Sirs, slave would like to thank you for accepting mom and dad… it means so much to hear that you are willing to come back next year to help move mom & dad and to help thin slaves stuff, their acceptance of you and your acceptance of them helped to make up slave mind in signing….and lastly Master… thank you for last nights play, it has been a long time since slave has been with a man… slave has missed that contact but will gladly refrain from that contact to honor Master…. But it didn’t end there… to be allowed to release at the hands of pup and behr for the sole purpose of pleasing Master…. What a thrill….
- Mood: grateful
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blah
- Mood: happy
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anxious
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tired
- Mood: relaxed
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excited
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determined
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satisfied
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uncomfortable
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depressed
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horny
- Mood: ecstatic
tomorrow is shaping up to another very busy day with fall clean up.... boy guesses he'll be ok....
addendum!
Guess good things come to those that wait..... just got off the phone with a friend.... and was invited to a weekend party.... that is by invite only... boy doesn't see Sir online so will have to explain later.... boy will be gone overnight and will return sometime tomorrow night... or morning!
so Boys off for some fun and play!
woo hoo!!!!
- Mood:
crazy
slave will be picking apples tomorrow and then hopefully going to the boat for Master Curtis and wen to check out slaves flogger.... sunday will be cooking time but will be around for Sir, Behr and Master to chat
- Mood: excited
- Mood: tired
Sir, sounded good tonight... it has been a while since we last chatted... Sir is allowing boy to go another night with his new plug... :D boy did chat with Sir about how important a contract is for us and we do agree... and boy is glad about that....
- Mood:
angry
Today was one of those ... is it ever going to end days.... it was vary busy and very productive but it just sucked! thing like: the weather was nice on the way in... until we had a fire drill.... it poured! we all got soaked.... boy got his work done but then needed to print .... with a broken printer.... then tonight.... drop all the way to portland to find that Curtis and wen wouldn't be going.... but boy made it through....
- Mood:
blank
boy isn't feeling real well, so he is going to bed early tonight....
- Mood: sick
- Mood: okay
topic: the need for communication.... boy has found that the glue that holds all bdsm relationships together is communication... talk before gives everyone involved a solid handle on where everyone is and what everyone wants... communication during allows the partners to grow together... learning the hadits and fears of each other together, and even communication after a breakup of mutual disolving of the relationship is important to keep the friendship open... closure is so important... but without communication noone involved knows where the other is at and thus the relationship grows stale... and will end due to boredom.... hopefully boy, Sir, Behr and Master will be able to keep the lines of communication open and alive....
- Mood: cheerful
tonights topic.... belonging..... boys overwhelming feeling of belonging to Master and the community helps him to be who he truely was meant to be... a slave to his Masters will.... boy feels that this step is a monumental one compared to the steps that he has taken in the past... this isn't just a follow through step but a major leap in the goal of slavery. Master, Sir and Behr are now boys life, this is what is supposed to be, this is where boy belongs... even through the onslaught of critisism from community members boy has kept on tract... so adversity doesn't seem to be an issue any longer....
- Mood: loved
Tonight boy doesn't have a topic..... just the knowledge that his Master, Sir and Behr love this boy... and boy owes then a debt of gratitude.....
Thank you Master!
Thank you Sir!
Thank you Behr!
- Mood: excited
tonights topic.... balance... this was also the chat topic tonight... boy has found his balance once again... it has been a rocky road since he left Master Bill but the harmonic balance that boy requires has thus far returned, boy, over the past couple of days boy has realized that he is a very lucky person to have Master, Sir and behr in his life along with a great family and many friend...
- Mood:
content
tonight blot enjoyed styxx... it wa great and to boot paul got a flooging from wen.... will expaline later! :)
tonights topic.... do we control each other without even realizing it? yesterday, boy was suprised to see Master Rabino and cristy here when mom & boy got home from shopping... well as Master Rabino was chatting with dad & mom cristy asked boy to meet with her on the side... so we did... and did she give boy an ear full.... apparently, according to cristy, wen persuaded boy to go to CA and to make the committment to Master Cage and Sir.... it was all her doing.... so tonight boy thanked wen for the persuasion...... we all had a great laugh.... but wen does have a persuasive nature.... but do we do that to others too?
- Mood: grateful
Tonights topic: a need to relax – boy finds that he requires time for relaxation, not all the time but enough to break up the monotony of life in general. boy has an idea that Sir and Master are the same….
boy is booking forward to his birthday this week…. 40 years old… didn’t think boy would live to see the day!!!
- Mood:creative
The topic for tonight.... discipline and the slave..... so boy guesses that today just goes to prove that boy is the slave not the Master.... having to dish out discipline is a hard thing to do especially with ones co-workers... boy can just imagine hard hard it is for Master to do that with boy... and how Sir must have an even harder time considering that he to is a slave.... which brings up a good point is Sir a switch? will Sir be able to live as a slave and serve as boys superior at the same time without negating one or the other??? hmmm......
- Mood: bitchy
Thursday..... one day to go!
tonights topic: ownership.... this is a topic that boy is so unfamiliar with.... Master Bill never owned boy.... up to now no one has... and it is an awesome feeling knowing that there is someone out there that cares for boy as he cares for his car, his home... not to make light of it ... but with boys complexities.... boy hopes that Sir keeps house well and his car clean.... otherwise boy may drive Master nuts with his idiosyncracies..... boy is rather high maintenance.... boy, Sir and Master will need to work hand in hand to survive this.... but only if Master requires the assistance.... boy will try his hardest to please....
- Mood:busy
Topic for tonight...... slave and the other people..... ok that sounds odd... but what boy is getting at.... is the other folks in the community.... Master Bill has been after boy to do a smak class on slave training... boy told him no.... boy has been given such a hard time since he decided to do this.... why on the west coast?, why with them? does anyone know them? are you ready for this? do you know what you're getting into? boy is tired of validating his position and decisions to these people.... why should he have to? boy has done his homework on Cage Community and the people involved...he knows who they are... he knows that there is nothing illegal going on and that its not for the money..... boy is very comfortable with the people there and the position that he is getting into.... so why can't boy just be left alone to be happy? why does he have to explain himself every step of the way? is it just their ignorance in the process? or jelousy that boy is happy? lots of things to think about.....
- Mood: contemplative
Sound like a lead in to tonights topic….sex! how does boy see it fit in…. boy doesn’t dwell on sex within the M/s relationship…. Boy feels that sex is the easy part of the relationship that the relationship is so much more important… sex is easy…. That in no way is to say that boy wouldn’t welcome a night of wonderful sex…. It has been a long time…. Intimate personal touch is something that boy hasn’t had in many years…. And would welcome the opportunity
- Mood: cheerful
Tonights topic.... hmmmm... haven't really thought about it.... slave was sitting at his desk and spotted his spreader bar... and thought Bondage! theres a great topic... there are many types of bondage, rope, leather restraints, shackles, chain, bondage beds, racks... you name it it can be used... what does slave like? slave likes leather and chains the best then rope. slave has never really been in full bondage, Master Bill was never comfortable doing it... but slave has done some to himself and has enjoyed it... slave often wears cuffs attached to his bed for the night, of course slave does use safety snaps in case of cramps or anything else. slave does love the feeling of being at the mercy of his Master or top and knowing that he has no recourse but to yellow or red out.... which slave has yet to do... as slave has mentioned before, slave has yet to reach his pain thresh hold and wishes that one of slaves Master can push him safely to that point..... slave may even ask Master Curtis to work on that with him.....
- Mood: happy
Tonights topic: toys... slave doesn't have a lot of toys but is building up quickly, slave isn't into canes but does like the slappers, paddles, floggers and general ass and back type toys... floggers... slave bought one and is making a matched set of leather floggers.... he just needs to do the wrapping and finish work..... slave doesn't feel that a lot of toys is really necessary, just good quality ones....
- Mood:accomplished
Tonights topic: close relationships and the slave: this is a topic that slave has thought about a lot lately…. Especially after reading the contract and manual… slave finds being able to chat with close friends like wen and Master Curtis and family for only an hour is a bit extreme, especially when slave is relocating to the other side the US. slave is leaving his family and friends in one fall sweep… and don’t really understand how he is to be expected to do this…. Guess this needs to be something else that slave addresses with Sir and Master….
Slave feels that he is asking a lot of Master and Sir, but neither Master of Sir really knows slave and just how close slave is to his family and friends…. October will be very interesting.
- Mood:
rejuvenated
tonights topic.... mortality..... a big topic for a lowly slave.... but one that we as humans deal with on a daily basis... we live today but may be called home tomorrow... slave sits back a watches his family.... mom being the matriarch of the family... it used to be that it was the old family members ... but now it's hitting close to home... too close to home... it really forces us to look deep within... have we accomplished what we wanted? do we have time to accomplish what we want? give a lot to think about...
- Mood: loved
Tonights topic.... centering... what is it? it's a method of bringing ones thoughts, dreams and being back in focus. Some do it by crouching, some by meditating, some by journaling... boy found that his way is to darken the room... light a few mood candles and put on some very quieting music... and to sit... eyes closed or with mindfold on... and to go over who boy is.... what boy wants and where boy needs to go and what boy needs to do.... it is time consuming... but boy is revived when completed and usually fall asleep.... the following day boy sets as a new day a fresh beginning... and usually it is...
- Mood: depressed
tomottow is back to work......
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pensive
tonights topic.... what about separation.... slave is leaving a life of security and comfort for an big unknown... slave has been at home with mom and dad for all but 2 years of his life... is there some trepidation... yes.. of course... and there should be... slave has a lot to think about. are mom and dad going to be ok? will someone be there for them if they get to a point that they need help? Will Anne & Steve follow throught on their promise? they haven't in the past... why would this be different.... slave has always been there for them and has been close enough to get here in just a couple of hours. will there be a time of relocation.. a time of adjustment? slave would assume so... but slave is unsure of that, slave just hopes that Master and Sir are there if and when slave needs the support from family separation....
- Mood: excited
tonight was big bill and suus labor day party.... slave was hoping to play tonight and slave did! Master Curtis sarted be whipping slave outside.... that was nice and Master Curtis did an awesome job.... and then again later Master curtis flogged slave... that was even better..... Master Curtis had to quit though (slave wore him out)..... the party was fum... lots of nice people.... but then Slave got up the nerve... slave asked CL to flog him before he leaves... CL spend about 25 minutes launching slave into a deep subspace.... happy land.... CL is awesome.... slave was in heaven.... slave left at 11:50 and got home with enought time to journal....
slave is pleased that he got to play so much tonight, slave was ready for it!
- Mood: chipper
Tonights topic.... slave types...........slave has noticed that there are many types of slaves, Gor, service minded, sex slaves... there are the totally submissive the partially submissive and the part timers..... but the deeper slave looks, the more he realizes that being a slave is a personal thing for everyone.... personally, slave feels that he will be whatever his Masters wish... they want a houseboy... they want a sex slave, they want a total submissive.... so be it... as long as Master is pleased.... that is what is important... that does not mean that slave won't have aspirations that he will discuss with Master and Sir... but it will be up to them if boy is to reach for it and attain it.... boy hopes that Master and Sir are the type that allows their slaves to grow and to use thier minds for the betterment of the community.
- Mood: determined
