I guess all you read is not true… no one has said a word about my not having journaled since last Wednesday… according to the website that is grounds for discipline…. I guess I’m just here for my own reasons … my service is to whoever takes it… seems to be a lot like when I was with bill & suu… as long as the work is done nothing is said… everytime I go nearMaster he shuts down… and behr just keeps reliving what could have been… if they only realized how much more this hurts… I feel like I’m being shut out of everything… Master and behr keep going off and chatting alone… Joie asked a valid question… one that I feel Master and Behr need to ask….. I know that I passed the test… I’ve stayed and served and will do so till the 26th … I gave my word and will keep it… but have they passed the test… not in my eyes… as joie’s Master was too much… mine wasn’t enough… I now have new questions to ask my perspective Masters… and have redefined my needs, wants and expectations…. But have Master and Behr done the same? or are they still going with the idea that they know how to train slaves? Maybe a trip down memory lane…. Eagle, scruffy, puppy, tigger…. Who’s next? I found out today that hound knows nothing…. Is that fair to him? shouldn’t they be honest with him….
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